ok first of all i am happily in a monogmous relationship
also i am pretty shitfaced as i am typing this
the thing i dont get about white boys: AKA my night out
i was at this place that sells overpriced shit to hipsters, while a friend of mine was exhibiting art work with his graffiti crew. at the same time, i was enrolled in a photography class where i could not afford a digital SLR camera so bougt a 35 mm one from craigslist that only ended up working intermittenly so i asked this particalurly well kept up boy, with a 35mm to help me figure out what was wrong with it. i came back 15 min later with my camera and a load of film and he announced, i don't know what's wrong, your camera is loaded correctly." so after that i thanked him and left. I was supposed to meet a girlfriend at the afterparty of this artshow but my phone died, so i attended anyway in hopes of seeing her. I didn't find her, but I saw our mutual friend and danced with him. I then, left for the back of the dance club in search of her but couldn't find her. out of the corner of my eye, i saw the photo guy who couldn't help me, but i continued on my way to hang out w my friend dancing at the front of the club. After dancing a while with him, i ordered a beer, then plopped down on a sofa to cool off and just sip. As I looked up, i saw that same photo guy, but as i saw him he walked away....I don't get it! was i having too much fun for him?? This whole post is so silly.
THE FEMME FEST
I don't know how to account for this, but 5 of our bands cancelled THE DAY OF the festival. the co-creator theorizes that the guy (who was the person to come up with the idea for the whole festival) didn't follow up and confirm all the bands we agreed on, i would not be surprised. either way, it was just a day that showed me how little confidence women have in their own creative projects when given a good opportunity, and how little confidence (some) men have in supporting such creative projects that women may have. it was also strange in the way a male person of the left can let their pseudo-inspirational-drug-addled-visions substitute for personal enlightenment & then project those worldviews onto everyone else, rendering those that do not agree as "fascists" even though we're just trying to help. more thoughts to follow later...
